The Silence Fillers

There are phrases that hit to the very core of my existence. I heard one of those phrases today uttered to another survivor. “God doesn’t give us more than we can handle.” Excuse me while I go and vomit. This phrase has no value other than to fill the awkward silence. The silence when someone…… Continue reading The Silence Fillers

Live in the Details

There is no better place to be. I don’t live for the big events anymore. I live in the details. When I went to the grocery store this morning it was raining, just a normal January drizzle. I danced in the rain, skipped is more like it, jumped in a puddle, and looked up while…… Continue reading Live in the Details

The Tears You Won’t See Me Shed

We all have them, the tears that we don’t allow others to see.  If people are honest with themselves we all have a chapter of our story that we don’t read out loud.  A chapter that never gets put down on paper.  We seal it away from the world.  Fear, privacy, intimacy, those are just…… Continue reading The Tears You Won’t See Me Shed

That Instant Connection

It’s like a snap of a finger for me, likely most people who have had cancer feel the same as me, you feel an instant connection with any survivor. It just clicks and it doesn’t matter your age, walk of life, religion, or gender. If you think about it, the cancer community kind of has…… Continue reading That Instant Connection

Experience the Holidays

With the passing of a survivor I knew her legacy lives on in the lives she touched. The holidays for me are a time to wrap up with family, experience the magic of the season, and create memories that I hope last a lifetime. When I heard her children say, “don’t be sorry for our…… Continue reading Experience the Holidays

I Will Bend and I Will Sway

If cancer has taught me anything it is that we must bend and sway before we break.  As I mentioned in my prior blog post, November is not an easy month for me yet as I schedule things I smile.  I think it’s me swaying.  There are certain things that have been scheduled for me this month…… Continue reading I Will Bend and I Will Sway

November, The Month I Have Been Dreading, The Month I Celebrate

Today of all days I open Facebook and hit the “On This Day” to cry my eyes out in between volunteering this morning to an evening ball (black tie event).  A year ago I went public with the information that a mass had been discovered on my left ovary.  The year ago me was worried,…… Continue reading November, The Month I Have Been Dreading, The Month I Celebrate