The Silence Fillers

There are phrases that hit to the very core of my existence. I heard one of those phrases today uttered to another survivor. “God doesn’t give us more than we can handle.” Excuse me while I go and vomit. This phrase has no value other than to fill the awkward silence. The silence when someone…… Continue reading The Silence Fillers

The Tears You Won’t See Me Shed

We all have them, the tears that we don’t allow others to see.  If people are honest with themselves we all have a chapter of our story that we don’t read out loud.  A chapter that never gets put down on paper.  We seal it away from the world.  Fear, privacy, intimacy, those are just…… Continue reading The Tears You Won’t See Me Shed

To Port Out or to Not Port Out, That is the Question

A year ago today I was in surgery for cancer staging and to have a hysterectomy.  Today I made my way up to the oncology floor for a port flush.  I found so much comfort in just the routine of things that I smile when I walk through those hospital revolving doors.  I am instantly…… Continue reading To Port Out or to Not Port Out, That is the Question

We Don’t Need Your Random Treatments You Found on the Internet

I could fix world hunger with the amount of random advice I have been given that would cure my cancer.  I think the one that told me that I should do all herbal medicines because that’s what her mother did even though she died six months later likely took the cake for me early on…… Continue reading We Don’t Need Your Random Treatments You Found on the Internet

You Won’t Find This in any Hysterectomy Brochure

Every woman fantasizes about the day she no longer has to worry about maxi pads, tampons, or cramps.  If you are a female and don’t then you must be in the 1% category of women that believes menstruating is a glorious thing.  I am not in that 1%.  Being plagued with ovarian cysts for most of my adult…… Continue reading You Won’t Find This in any Hysterectomy Brochure

The Parents Who Show Up

I wouldn’t begin to know what it is like to have the parents who show up for cancer. Let me just repent on the language that I am about to use in this blog post because it is literally going to get real here in just a minute.  I haven’t mentioned my parents much, if…… Continue reading The Parents Who Show Up