The Silence Fillers

There are phrases that hit to the very core of my existence. I heard one of those phrases today uttered to another survivor. “God doesn’t give us more than we can handle.” Excuse me while I go and vomit. This phrase has no value other than to fill the awkward silence. The silence when someone…… Continue reading The Silence Fillers

The Bad Charades Game

If you ever want to know what chemo brain is like then just picture yourself trying to play a terrible game of charades where absolutely no one gets you. Lately I have been struggling to find words I never would have struggled with prior to cancer. At times I can laugh it off and say,…… Continue reading The Bad Charades Game

November, The Month I Have Been Dreading, The Month I Celebrate

Today of all days I open Facebook and hit the “On This Day” to cry my eyes out in between volunteering this morning to an evening ball (black tie event).  A year ago I went public with the information that a mass had been discovered on my left ovary.  The year ago me was worried,…… Continue reading November, The Month I Have Been Dreading, The Month I Celebrate

You Won’t Find This in any Hysterectomy Brochure

Every woman fantasizes about the day she no longer has to worry about maxi pads, tampons, or cramps.  If you are a female and don’t then you must be in the 1% category of women that believes menstruating is a glorious thing.  I am not in that 1%.  Being plagued with ovarian cysts for most of my adult…… Continue reading You Won’t Find This in any Hysterectomy Brochure

Sassy and Fat Deprived

I don’t know what it is about short hair but it dares me to be way more sassy than normal!  I wore redish/orangish pants today with a super trendy navy blue top and a dark lip color.  My past self would have been like, ummm hell no, ain’t gonna happen go back to your safe…… Continue reading Sassy and Fat Deprived

The Diet

You know how you are super excited to start a new diet and you just want all the details in it?!  I was so excited to learn more about the new diet with the clinical study and that day finally arrived!!!!  Yes!  Finally!  Let’s do some back flips, this is going to be easy breezy! …… Continue reading The Diet

The Club No One Wants To Be In

Reality.  It creeps up like a serious you know what.  Reality being that cancer is a club that no one wants to be in.  Today I learned that someone I have followed in the journey for a while entered hospice.  Hard ugly cry.  When I say that there is a raw that will never go away for…… Continue reading The Club No One Wants To Be In